need help

Wow its been awhile. Nothing new, probably no one reads this but I really need advice especially a guys advice!! Ok so last week I went to this wine tasting place with my friend and her husband and a whole bunch of their friends. Now she has a friend that I met a few times, we got along but never really talked alone. So she tells me hes gonna be there, so i'm like ok. He gets there, i just say hi and he sits away from me to talk to my friend. Then he gets up get some wine and sits near me, and he asks how I am doing then we start talking. At first its me, him and a few other friends talking but then its just me and him. He asks me questions about me and I do the same and then its like its just the two of us talking. And the conversation flowed really well. My friend gets up and wants to eat so they leave but me and him stay, then other friends leave and we are all alone. So we're talking about everything and my friends return but me and him are still just talking and just having fun. then finally I realize its late so I tell him I have to leave. He walks me to my car and tells me how much fun it was, he gives me a hug, i can tell he wanted to kiss me but her tells me that he'll see me the next outing then he tells me next time he goes to the winery he'll call me. Then he gets my number, texts me and tells me "now you have my number" Stupid me never checks my phone cause i never got a text. So either he has the wrong number or it never went through. So i text my friend on what to do and she texts him saying that I never got his message so hope he doesnt have the number wrong. He never responds. And he never texted me, now I'm pretty good at knowing when a guy will call and if a guys interested so now I dont know what to do. Either I just wait for him to call or text, or maybe I just send him a casual note on facebook next week or maybe he will just message me when he can go out. I dont know what to do. Cause i know hes on my friends facebook and I can send a really casuall message like "oh btw never got a message from you so hope you arent texting the wrong person" And just act like I never asked my friend to text him. So help please, i really like him and hes not a db and hes funny, cute and like perfect for me. Ugh I'm so stupid, should've looked at my phone

back from my trip

My trip was lovely, got to hang out with my cousin and her family. And got to see other family that i have not seen in many, many years. Talked about family drama, lol So much of it in our family. but yeah i did everything that i wanted to do and relaxed a bit. Its nice to be in a house with no crazy construction, lol. But on another note, he and i never met up. i dont know if hes telling the truth or not, guess i have to believe him but my bitter, cynical side just doesnt believe any man anymore. Now is it fair for me to label all men dbs? Ok so this is his excuse. He told me he asked for days off and they never got approved. Then on sunday i was annoyed with him and didnt text him back all day so he tells me that hes sorry but he wanted to meet up but 3 people at work are out on vaca and hes stuck working. I mean that could be true and i know that he works long crazy shifts and i know that he works lots of OT. But still a small part of me wished he would have tried harder to see me but then again if i was working 18 hr shifts all week i would probably not wanna go out either. But who knows. so yeah thats his story and i dont know what to do. I dont know where we stand. I'm just gonna not worry about it like i normally do and just let him chase me and i'll just not talk to him as much.

getting nervous

So in less then a week i will be flying to Jersey to visit my cousins and to meet a guy that hopefully is not a DB, but so far so good. I really nervous about flying cause well I hate it. I try not to think of it cause it really freaks me out. And well i'm really nervous about seeing matt cause well he seems like a really good guy and i have no idea what will happen. Part of me is so over men and so cynical towards them all that I kinda dont care. but then of course theres that part of me that kinda believes he really is a good guy and to stop worrying so much. I mean i dont know whats really gonna happen. He's so far away and i dont wanna get hurt again. But I think we are either gonna just stay friends or more. I doubt hes gonna be an ass. But who knows but yeah I'm a nervous wreck and well I gotta go shop and buy some stuff today. and start packing a little. I'm sure to write more later on this week.

Kinda weird

So lately DB's have been contacting me, no idea why. There is one that I swear can not take a hint but is starting to a bit more then before. Then there is another that I used to talk to on some dating site like a few years ago but he was weird, we never even met and he was so in love with me and would just creep me out so I stopped talking to him. I lied and said I had a bf. And recently he imed me and was being all creepy again so i blocked him. Then theres the guy who kept leaving me at the table. He texted me, apologized for being a jerk and tried to ask me out again, I said no and havent responded to any of his texts. And lately when i go out I see some of them but they dont see me, its weird. And still Matt from jersey is not a DB. By now i would've been able to tell cause he would have stopped talking to me. So who knows what'll happen. I'm getting a bit more nervous about my trip now. I dont know whats gonna happen.

Craziness

So its official August is a crazy month for me. I'm so very happy that i'm not going to school. I have so many parties and things going on now. I'm most looking forward to my cousin coming to visit, thats gonna be lots of fun. And our house is still being remodeled and its crazy. Its nice to have some time off of men, it really is. And my mom keeps bugging me to online date again and i tell her no. I wanna meet them the old fashioned way. While i'm not looking. I mean it would be nice to have a guy and all but honestly i'm enjoying myself. Just hanging out with friends and truly enjoying life. I dont have time to deal with another DB. Now the guy in Jersey is different cause we'll meet up when i go there but i'm seeing it more as a friends thing. Cause well we never met and we might meet and it could be totally awful or not. Only thing i'm sure of is hes not a DB. And well if he cant meet up with me then i know its just a friends thing. I dont know i'm so down with guys that I have no real expectations anymore when it comes to them. Honestly i just want us to get along and hang out and if something happens, it happens. But i'm more loooking forward to seeing my cousins who i havent seen in forever. Thats gonna be fun and visiting a new place. there are so many places i wanna travel to. And i hope i get to someday

little update

So i'm all excited cause me and my friend are planning a trip to Seattle and I'm probably gonna visit my cousin in Jersey and still no online dating. You guys didnt think I could do it but I did it. Honestly I'd rather spend time with my friends and family then waste it on another DB. Ok so I'm just wondering what should I do about this guy (DB from the past) who keeps texting me, and I never reply. Last time I talked to him was when I told him off in March cause he wanted to see me. And seriously should I just say stop texting me or hope he finally realizes I want nothing to do with him. I mean really how dumb can one boy be? Ok so theres this guy who I know I shouldnt like but hes more of a distraction then anythig else. Hes way too young but totally hot and lives on the East coast. And he texts me pretty much all the time, even after we talked on the phone for over an hour he still texted me after that. I dont know what he wants from me and I dont know what to do. I mean I cant do the long distance thing again, it sucks and I dont even know what he wants from me. My friend told me to just tell him "i'm going to see my cousin and if you wanna hang out lemme know, if not then its ok" And if he says "hes too busy" or something then I know my answer. But i'm really not expecting mch from any guy anymore, I'm so tired of all the stupid games and whatever, I'm so tired of getting hurt all the time, I guess having someone so far away wont hurt so much if he finds someone else. I think i'm just gonna let this one guy and just have fun with him and just treat him as a friend cause I'm tired of every guy hurting me

I really did mean it

So things are kind of normal now, I have the summer off, no school!!!! So happy, i really needed a break, work is fine and the stupid DB is already dating someone else. So much for him not wanting to be tied down to a serious commitment. I mean seriously I would have preferred if he just told me "sorry, i met someone else" I swear men are so lame. I really am turning bitter, i really need a break from all of them. But yeah you will be all happy to know that I am no longer dating anymore online guys, no longer looking for them online or even in real life cause well i just wanna enjoy myself. And well i'm just tired of dealing with stupid boys who dont know what they want or who cant tell me the truth, i'm just so sick and tired of their crap. And seriously the next one I date is gonna be sorry cause i'll treat him like crap. But yeah thats why i'm done with them for now. I seriously just wanna go out have fun, visit my family in the east coast, go on vacation, go to the beach and go out and just live my life and not worry about stupid boys anymore