I've accepted it

So yesterday I went out during the day and just sat and wrote for a while and thought about things lately. And although Mark is a great guy and all, and I dont like how things have been between us lately. I was gonna wait a week to respond to him and see if he notices but then I thought that I dont care anymore. I really, truly dont care anymore. I let out all my feelings, in my mind it was over and then he emails me and tells me what he says. And it truly just confused me cause hes a man in his 30's who has already been married and has dealt with horrible women in the past and cant put that aside for me. Who is probably the nicest out of all of them and he cant see that. So i responded to him today and just stated how i felt and what i wanted and just asked him straight out "what are we?" And i know its weird but I feel better and I feel fine cause i heard from him and now have closure and can move on. Cause there is someone out there who will want to be with me and do anything he can to make it happen. I know hes out there somewhere but right now I'm just gonna concentrate on school and work stuff. There is some good news about the work stuff, my cousin might be moving here and she needs a nanny for Scarlett, how awesome would that be? I mean seriously, that would be great. So we'll see if that happens or not. But yeah i've made my peace with the whole Mark thing. Only thing he could say to me now to make things work out is I'm sorry or I want to make things work. But anything else just wont do for me now